Saturday, 4 April 2020

Staying faithful


Mark 14:32-36
Jesus Prays in Gethsemane
They went to a place called Gethsemane; and he said to his disciples, “Sit here while I pray.” He took with him Peter and James and John, and began to be distressed and agitated. And he said to them, “I am deeply grieved, even to death; remain here, and keep awake.” And going a little farther, he threw himself on the ground and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him. He said, “Abba, Father, for you all things are possible; remove this cup from me; yet, not what I want, but what you want.”

Being faithful
is exhausting
Weighing up the cost 
of commitment
and change
when loss seems 
more prevalent than gain
Balancing the books
of uncertainty and agitation
with tentative peace
Not much of a relief
but  some kind of resolution
around which
life can begin to flow 
Like a sandbank in a river
Still there
but navigable
But the energy it takes
just to get that far
never mind what’s next
necessitates withdrawal
lying low
taking time
to reclaim 
all that has been eroded
in the struggle 
to be faithful
and to remain available
to possibility.
Healing
may creep in slowly
not to anaesthetise the pain
but to massage and soothe
so that tenderness
openness
and sensitivity
remain the foundation
of future growth
and continued faithfulness.

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