Do you ever feel like you simply don't fit? Spent today at two meetings with colleagues.The first meeting, for ministers supervising students for ministry was well organised and had a good structure. But, as is often the case at such gatherings, I left with the feeling of not being heard, far less listened to. I love having a student and I'm learning so much through the experience but there seemed a definite reluctance today to acknowledge that as part of the payback, if you like, for the time invested in helping the student develop. And another curious thing that I often experience is the acceptance of a point of view when made by one of my male colleagues, even when I have made the very same point just minutes earlier. Hey ho - You'd think I would be used to it by now - but I keep hoping for better.
The other meeting was Presbytery. Need I say more? Soul destroying stuff.
So tonight I'm feeling unloved and undervalued - but not beaten! Curiously enough, days like today just make me want to hang on in there and fight to change things. Will I never learn?
Well Liz, maybe it's just my sense of humour today, but the more I look at those fish.......
ReplyDeleteDon't they remind you of anyone? Especially the one on top with his mouth open........Looks familiar, sure I've heard him preach locally!!!!!!!
Don't let them grind you down.
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