Spent today at two meetings with colleagues.The first meeting, for ministers supervising students for ministry was well organised and had a good structure. But, as is often the case at such gatherings, I left with the feeling of not being heard, far less listened to. I love having a student and I'm learning so much through the experience but there seemed a definite reluctance today to acknowledge that as part of the payback, if you like, for the time invested in helping the student develop. And another curious thing that I often experience is the acceptance of a point of view when made by one of my male colleagues, even when I have made the very same point just minutes earlier. Hey ho - You'd think I would be used to it by now - but I keep hoping for better.
The other meeting was Presbytery. Need I say more? Soul destroying stuff.
So tonight I'm feeling unloved and undervalued - but not beaten! Curiously enough, days like today just make me want to hang on in there and fight to change things. Will I never learn?